Joined: 24 Jul 2004 Posts: 147
Location: USA, N.Y. Brooklyn.
Post subject: why???
why friends are too important in our life and why do we feel depressed for not having them and why does not having friends affects every parts of our life??? why? Why? WHY? this is absolutely not fair to me and to others. why does this stupid society make things look in such a way that make us feel nothing even though we do have some talent in some fields and it can grow to something very important. why do those people have to discourage us (students, teenagers, male, female) and make us feel nothing and also expect too much from us at the same time??? why do they not look back to our record and look our background and our mental, physical backgrounds??? and judge us that way and support and encourage us so we will overcome and do great. why are those people tease us such way that make us feel nothing and make us feel so discourage that we give up thinking we won't be able to do well??? why a teacher will laugh at a student when she/he makes a mistake??? why??? aren't we student should be making mistake and learning from teachers??? what right a teacher has to laugh at a student??? why one should be looked down at a student or anyone for her/his belief, cultural background, and nationality??? why this free land still deny scholarship to smart student in such a way that won't show that they are being racist, prejudged and so on??? why does a teacher have to say such and such thing is too hard and you aren't capable of doing such and such??? why??? aren't the teacher suppose to be the one to teach and make things look easy and encourage student to do things??? why are these and many other things like that??? why??? why??? why???
Fri Oct 01, 04 9:41 pm
quantum Site Admin
Joined: 07 Mar 2004 Posts: 1048
Location: Dhaka, Bangladesh
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Payel, I totally understand what you are saying. Not having friends is really painful. I myself is a loner myself. Although, I like it that way most of the time. Some times, like all, I too crave for a friend. A friendly ear to pour my heart into. Who would listen to my hopes, my dreams, my sorrows. And will encourage me when I fail. Give me hope when everyone else turns their back on me. The fact is that, the world and the reality is cruel. And we all need other's help to get through its many cruelties.
As for the elders or teachers who would disciurage younger people in such a callous way, they are completely morons. They forget how it had been in their days. Or they may be taking a sort of revenge for their past? Could be. Whatever it is, you should never lose hope. Not everyone is like that. Sometimes it happens. It seems like all the world is against you. But it will pass. It always does. If you keep trying, you will get through them and get what you want. We all have our good moments and bad moments. Don't lose your heart and you will win. Wish you all the Good luck, Payel. _________________
Dust fills my eyes / Clouds roll by / and I roll with them / Centuries cry / Orders fly / and I fall again
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Fri Oct 01, 04 11:48 pm
payel3 Expert User
Joined: 24 Jul 2004 Posts: 147
Location: USA, N.Y. Brooklyn.
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quan, it is so good to hear such things from you.
quan i am not upset that i do not have friends or whatever. quan the thing is this. you see, i used to know a teacher was so good and so on. but now i have her and i see her. she is good indeed, and funny too. but she laughs at her students in such a way that makes them feel worthless or may make them feel like such.
and also, one of the college advisor of our school, is so too harsh, i would say, he discourage student really badly. i am shock with that. one of the person close to me feel so horrible after hearing his words, like i felt. the only thing i said to her is that not to listen to him and move on.
and friend. the classmate of my from chinese, an excellent student moved to regular english class now and she has no friend there and she feels very lonely. so, when she had me in a class, she was too happy to see me and told me everything.
i said it is okay, you will do great but she said it is not about the score, but friends, if you do not have friends and someone to share and talk, you don't feel like doing anything and so on.
quan all these things just made me feel crying and so upset. therefore i wrote like that. why friend is too important. i know the answer now. i just thought about in the early morning and remembered that i read something about it not so long ago.
we are interdependent and need each others very much to share, to talk, for help and so on.
but sometimes, things are so croul like you said.
i am done with those stupid teacher and advisors stuffs. i feel like go to them and scream about them. why did they bother to be such person and in such position to destroy those bright students life and make them feel worthless.
quan, it is hard to find such people like you talked about but don't forget to look though. try to find the right person for yourself. one of my teacher told me, find the right person, so students asked how will you know? she said you will feel it.
maybe she is true but no problem to give that a try. what do you say quan?
Sat Oct 02, 04 10:38 am
quantum Site Admin
Joined: 07 Mar 2004 Posts: 1048
Location: Dhaka, Bangladesh
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Good that you are feeling better now. Just ignore those people who want to make you feel bad for no good reason at all.
Also I think, it'd be pretty cool to find the right person. After all, who in this world does not want to be with the right person? Only problem is, the right matches are very hard to find. Oh well, no harm keep looking. Who knows where you meet the right one!
Uh...lemme sing that song again.
I search for her in the dead of night
A silhouette lit by candle light
In a whispered word she is gone
Familiar stranger without a name
In a darkened room they all look the same
Like the sand of time she slips away so far away
In the mirror you can see her face
An angel dressed in the blackest lace
A sip of wine and the game can begin
Just an image lost in fantasy
Then you touch her and you can't break free
Till you see your fate written there in her eyes
Joined: 24 Jul 2004 Posts: 147
Location: USA, N.Y. Brooklyn.
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wow!!! quan, your song, i would rather say it is a poem, great. its mood.
quan, feeling better, sometimes i can't say it like now. i have too much to study for but until today the second night of weekend, i didn't even sit to study.
i just sat here and wrote this now.
don't know what it is though. my thoughts ...that's all i know.
how is it shining?
everything looks weary
me, in the alone path
looking back and forth ahead
nothing is there to think
everything just empty seems
wind just blow its way
never trys to take you with
there is non to care
neither to fear
well hun! you are lost
still a hope that counts
no matter what i do
never can i knew
how to take care you
why bother trying then
when i know i will lose you at the end
oh! the full moon is up
shining with its silver light
i am only alone there
thinking and trying to fix
yet, no result do i see
so, WHAT SHOULD I DO?
leave the earth
that is all
don't know how to do this
crying is just worthless
never did i find
a selter to hide my mind
looking up at the sky
make me feel just like clay
cold with its nature
feeling so small
do i find little assurence
never did i know
where i really want to go
never did i find
myself within my
thoughts can just go on
yet will never be done
so, what should i do???
i like my writings though. sometimes those thoughts surprise me very much and also, make me feel a lot better.
i wrote it, after making a html page with almost all of my poem that i have now:
A LIST OF POEMS AND A LIST OF MEMORIES AND A LIST OF SORROW AND A LIST OF HAPPINESS.
THEY ARE ALL TOGETHER IN THESE POEMS AND WRITINGS OF MY.
yes, quan it is too hard to find a right person, too hard. really. me, i am out of that. sometimes, i think those stuffs aren't for me at all. i just wish i could go for a long long long walk and i wish i was all alone and killed this self day by day tortoring it and suffering.
horrible ... amin...
Sat Oct 02, 04 6:30 pm
quantum Site Admin
Joined: 07 Mar 2004 Posts: 1048
Location: Dhaka, Bangladesh
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hmm payel, you seem to be getting morose again. How could you be so sad after writing such a beautiful poem? When someone creates something original and beautiful, he/she should be happy. It's like giving birth to a new baby and all the pains are worthful for that achievement. I really like you poem. It expresses your thoughts and inner turmoils excuisitely. How did you learn to write poems so well? Who are your inspirations?
Now let me tell you what you should do. I think, you should publish all your poems and other writings on your own beatiful web page as soon as possible. So that everyone can share your creations. And forget all those torture and kill stuffs. Okay. You are still very young. There is a long way to go. I promise you, this phase will pass. We all feel this sorry for ourselves time to time. But remember there are always people in a worse state than you are. So be patient and let it pass. Also I think, you are again worrying yourself too much with school stuffs. Schools are no big deal, as you will find in the future. It's actually how much you really learn and know that will matter when you get into job field. So just concentrate on that. Learn as much useful stuffs as you can. A certificate or scholarship will only take you so far if you don't have the real skills. Just get better and better at what you do. It will be all alright. _________________
Dust fills my eyes / Clouds roll by / and I roll with them / Centuries cry / Orders fly / and I fall again
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Sat Oct 02, 04 10:18 pm
payel3 Expert User
Joined: 24 Jul 2004 Posts: 147
Location: USA, N.Y. Brooklyn.
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hmm payel, you seem to be getting morose again. How could you be so sad after writing such a beautiful poem?
thank you quan, for such a lovely saying. i was really upset about yesterday. sometimes, i feel like that and write what comes in my mind. i used to write so many poems once. but then i lost it. it is hard to write sometimes. can't put the words in order or so. i lost some of my dearest and beautiful poems. the website i added those in they deleted it. it is horrible. they deleted all ours nice lovely poems. not so fair. i feel like asking them for those poems. i didn't keep a copy of those poems since i thought those will be in the web page forever and i will be able to take them when i wish but wasn't like that.
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It expresses your thoughts and inner turmoils excuisitely. How did you learn to write poems so well? Who are your inspirations?
how did i learn it? well, one way i learned it in class and otherway you know it. you know when people feel depressed and upset and so on they write poems and so on. i was kind of like that. after losing all that i had i was depressed and after a long i just wrote those up and that made me feel happy a quite. my dada ji, i told you about him, he supported me after reading my poems.
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There is a long way to go. I promise you, this phase will pass. We all feel this sorry for ourselves time to time. But remember there are always people in a worse state than you are. So be patient and let it pass. Also I think, you are again worrying yourself too much with school stuffs.
wow!!! quan, great to hear such words, really. thank you quan. it is hard though, thank you quan really very much. i am trying to take that school thing very easy now. i had destroyed my health for those score stuffs, cared about no friends or so on at all for that thing. you are right about what you said. it is only what we learn and that's what we must focus on.
i am looking for a free web host still but can't get one. i don't know how to use the yahoo.com one at all. it is like a mass to me. i don't understand those people who use free web host page use and make them as they do. i didn't get it yet.
i am just making all the html pages with my thoughts and so on. i like it.
thank you quan. i think you should be the advisor of your school instead of those people. you would have given such a inspiration to student that they would have done great.
you are doing great though in here. i like the way you greet your new members and talk to them so friendly. i think it attracts your members very much and make them visit your site more.
really i am not kidding. i hope you will be much more like that and you will be as you wish to be.
Great Quan.
Sun Oct 03, 04 12:17 pm
quantum Site Admin
Joined: 07 Mar 2004 Posts: 1048
Location: Dhaka, Bangladesh
